Date : Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Time : 8:27 AM
Title : If you can afford me by Stella ft. Meilinda.

Really need to spill my feelings over the Internet tonight.
Too stressful.
Too emotional.
Too much exaggerations.
Too much efforts.
But..
Nothing comes out.
Nothing better.
It makes things only worse.
If there is a word "worser" then it is then.

I hate being in a "too demanding,too needy, too hands-all-over-the-place-kind-of relationship".
Gahhh!
Makes me so "fan" (pek chek in medanese's hokkian or the feeling that all the bad things happen to you at the same time in english, we just can't find the exact word)!
Is it only my feeling or am I being my stubborn, more friend-oriented than boyfriend-oriented kind of girlfriend?
Or am I being right?
I think it's the last one.
Haha.

Well, it's been my trait to put friendship first then my boyfriend.
Because I've never been in this kind of close and personal relationship before.
But why oh why, my current bf dun even understand at all?
Or does he even LISTEN what I said?

Why do most of boys change when they already got what they want?
First, they like you, then do a closure which involves nice compliments, flirty jokes, being so understanding and tolerant, being what they called as the perfect future boyfriend,
after that, if they are lucky enough, they can date those girls that like them back (or just get disappointed).
Then, after they get official and going steady,they'll change.
Seriously, I got it.
They change.
They become needy, want to be with you all the time,
Dun care if you even have friends waiting to hang out with you after you get official since you were so busy dating him when both of you weren't official yet.
Then, they started to get all over your body with their filthy hands (no offense, boys), then you start to give what they want,
then, after you ALMOST gave up everything to them
They turned out to be selfish, ignorant, bossy kind of boyfriend.
That's when they start giving you orders,
If they are unhappy, do not expect them to call you tonight.
Yes, dude, you boys are like that.
No wonder girls are more mature than you guys, even the same age.
Because, you hurt us all.
Too much.
And when it explodes.
We cry, man.
Yes, we cry.
Got it?
Then, we realize most of you boys (MOST) just hanging there.
Moving on,
And we are still hurting from your words, actions.
But then, finally,
WE TURN TO OUR FRIENDS FOR HELP.
That's what the point I want to prove here.
At the end of the day, friends are who we turned to.
They are wayyyyy nicer than your date.
They help you get through this.
and guess what?
that's why we grow up.
We become more mature.
and..
what are you guys doing while we are in those process of moving on?
oh yeah.
Looking other girls as your new targets.
Wow.
AND STILL
U R PROUD OF IT?
geez..
But if you find better than us, it's ok.
We understand it.
But if you find the other one, who is worse than us,
then ...
u are going down, dude.
wayyy down.
:p


Afterall,
It's just being me, boy, being myself.
Take it or leave it.